I'm shutting down this blog
I've been struggling to focus on anything this month. Maybe it's because I'm a year older, and nowhere closer to where I want to be. Maybe I'm sick of working in computer administration and support, an industry I've only grown sick of after 4 years. Maybe it's because I'm frustrated by my amateur-level programming skill. Maybe I'm still disappointed that my games, despite not living up to my own standards, have received little apparent response from the world at large. Maybe all the above.
I'm going back to school. There are excellent resources for learning programming online, www.learncpp.com being my current focus, but I also want the opportunity to take on the math challenges I've missed. I want the opportunity to produce programs and take on team projects as a programmer rather than a designer. I want exposure to the theory behind the work, to those who might be my peers in the industry, and a Bachelors.
I foresee alot of stress next year, alot of lost sleep, at least 1 apartment move, potentially quitting my job to go to school full-time, and I don't want to do any of it while also worrying about a blog I barely maintain as it is.
I'm not going to stop trying to make games. The only things I ever care about programming on my own are games. However, for the time being, I'd rather have a free blog under a different name than a paid blog under a name I don't really care about.
I'm using the spakegames domain because I couldn't think of anything else to use back when I was working on my racing card game. That's literally the only reason. Every other name I thought of was actually worse. So, over the next month, I'm going to transition the content I like from this blog to another one. Or, I'll forget about it until next year, get reminded by a Wix charge to my bank account, and just shut the whole thing down. Whichever happens first.
This blog has helped me to finish projects. It has not made me happy.
Goodbye for now.